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Sunday, May 28, 2006

crap. im blogging now at friggin 7am! i idled the whole night just now and didnt even realise that the sky was sooooOO bright outside. fuck. was chatting with my fellow bandmate on the phone just now and didnt realise i had been talking for so long with him, not until my mom opened my door and started nagging like hell. lol, i understand her la. my mother is forcing me to sleep now so im trying to keep my post short but detailed as possible. and i havent even showered for the whole night -_-

SUNDAY. i woke up, received an sms. it was 430pm. i slept for fucking 13 and half hours! i had plans. i decided to get a present for my dad. i know, i've been quite a bad son. it was both our fault la. but before that, i decided to scan the ads inside the papers for jobs. i found one. i called and the job seemed sucky, door to door sales. that would mean it's highly based on commission. thats so gay. my eyes are burning now due to the sunshine pouring in, getting increasingly brighter. i must learn to type faster. then i quickly showered, and left for CP. met human S and her cousins. ate at mac. oops. i broke a promise. human S tried to steal my wallet -_- but thanks to my quick and deadly reflexes, she never succeeded > : )

ate the new mcpepper meal. tasted like shit to me. the only thing decent was the twister fries. a copied idea from the once famous, now defunct, A&W. oooooh. how much i miss the food there. the curly fries, root beer float, waffles. ICECREAM. fuck fuck. shant think of food now. i need to bury myself into the bed. then i went to search for a polo tee for my dad at royal sporting house, fuck la, $50. so that was wayyyyy beyond my budget of $20. so i decided to buy it either today, a monday or tuesday when im going out to town to shop alone. a late birthday is so much better than not giving a birthday present at all. then after that, we went our separate ways. i didnt wanna go back so fast, so i decided to exercise and did some brisk walking all the way to RP and take 88 there instead. it was good exercise anyway. then reached RP, went to piss, then saw carrot and company. met her for 30 seconds or less than i left after i bought my drink. she looks damn good girl now due to that new hairstyle haha. the bus was so quick today.

reached back home. i told myself to stay away from chocolates. and peach tea. and green tea, and pineapple tea, and orange tea, all the T. they are poison to my bloodstream. i dont want my insomnia to worsen. and now im still awake, maybe i should just stay awake the whole day today. i dont know la. i think i should just go sleep. anyway back to blogging. the time is 130am. i was fucking bored. i went to switch on the tv. the channels suck. so i just watched channel U for fun and laughter. nickelodeon was showing Rugrats. i fucking hate Rugrats! then later i went back to my room to find something worthy to do. then i started feeling emotional. i'm thinking about those stuff again. so i just picked up my guitar and i composed a song on the spot. recorded over 6 times because i had sweaty palms. here's the song anyway.

http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=4B8065164D9D1475

music is my life, my passion. i really want my band to get back to jamming ASAP. and i really hope that i could find a job. i have 2 friggin months of holidays left. i wanna make my free time worthwhile by working and earning the extra income for good so i could learn to be independant and buy somemore new clothes : D now im kinda into bright colors for shirts, my latest shirt is Turquoise in color. somehow i dont like the idea of red shirts. i only wear them at home. black is sexy. blue is steamy. purple is da THANG. i still will like that color no matter what people say. call me gay or whatever i wont be affected. i really think i should end the entry now. the sun is killing me already.

i've hung up my guns.

insomnia really sucks.

she's not the only reason for it.

i will never forget you.

i wish i could have the courage to say it all out.

i'm tired of keeping it all inside for so long.

IF ONLY.
Purple Rose;
1:26 PM