Thursday, November 30, 2006
hullo. been MIA from the online world for about a day. well, i have my reasons la, continue reading and you'll find out below. my font is seriously too small, sometimes reading through my blog for grammar errors is such a drag, because it is straining my eyes like fuck. and i still have no damn idea on how to increase the font size -_-
MONDAY.
stupid day. nothing to talk about.
TUESDAY.
went out like, so damn early. i left the house around 2pm, which is, according to my body clock, considered to be 6am when comparing to the other average normal people out there. i had fun on that day la. slacked over almost half a day and time flies really quick. i never realized that just by lying on the bed, talking crap and using the laptop to view a few clips could make 5 hours go by like 5 minutes.
7pm. (approximately)
i receieved a call from a number which looked awfully familiar. because recently, like a week ago i've been receiving the same calls but of a slightly different number pattern and around the similar timing too, but i didnt pick up those calls. then today, i just picked up it la. haiyo. fucking hell, it's my programme head for the entire foundation level in my school. naturally i was a little stunned la, then he said that i didnt hand in one of my old assignments(shit) and falsed one other module of the non-music section. and i have a re-sit which is TOMORROW, 930am. how crappy. this is really last minute. my mood for the night took a nosedive. and i didnt have the mood to talk to my friend.
8pm.
after my dinner at the kopitiam, i was persuaded to go town for just a minor favour ; accompanying a friend to go shopping -_- and i was really hesitant about going la, since with that stupid assignment due to complete in a night stuck in my head, i'd rather go back home. but in the end, i succumbed to peer pressure because im a nice guy. ok. accompanying someone to shop is really boring. that's it for tuesday. another fucked up bad hair day.
WEDNESDAY.
somehow, i miraculously got that assignment done the night before. it's no miracle actually. i just googled for information, did a little cut and paste, and tadah, i'm "done". got it printed over at my neighbour's and i'm so glad to have that heavy burden lifted off my shoulders. but wtf, i duno what i ended up doing for that night, i slept at 4am, and my alarm clock is set to ring at 715am.
715am.
i was really tired as hell. dragged myself to go to school. i checked the email sent to my private school email address and i'm not the only one screwing up a module or two, and there were quite a number of people too. at least 20.
910am.
i was early haha. walked up the stairs to his office like a zombie, dragging my feet, and eyebags are really bad already. bleh. i submitted my overdue assignment and he actually congratulated me -_- (wait till you read it and see how crappy it is) while over at the re-sit venue, there was only ONE guy waiting outside. omg, so many didnt turn up. went into the room at 930am and was issued our respective papers and started doing. another girl turned up. ok that makes only 3. -_- and they finished their papers within like 5minutes. wtf.
i took slightly longer, about 15 minutes to complete mine, and i had no idea of what the questions were asking because i didnt study for it. another 2 more guys turned up, and that's about it. left school and went to Old Airport road for my breakfast. it was only 10am then.
the only 2 wanton noodle stalls that i ate from before were closed. so i walked around and found another wanton mee stall, and like the others, it also has good responses from the people, judging from their certficates proudly displayed outside. bought one large bowl, $3 and tried it. this is good. but the serving is a little stingy. for $3, i expected more than this. practically every stall at Old Airport Road has good feedback la.
here's the gay part, i finished eating and left the place at about 1030am, and i have aural classes outside later at 330pm. i went back home, showered and died on the bed to compensate for the mere 3 hours of sleep i had. i overslept in the end and rushed over later and was late by half an hour. here's the gayest part. after classes, im having a chalet organised by my lasalle classmates, and i could bang my head against the wall for not bringing all my clothes along. and so, i went ALL THE WAY BACK HOME TO PACK MY BAG AND LEFT AGAIN FOR PASIR RIS.
this world day. is. so. tiringg. i reached downtown east's chalet finally at 7pm, after a minor mix up between 2 different chalets as they were quite close together. the thing i like about downtown east's chalets; there are always pretty girls around. hahah. threw my rock-heavy bag aside in our tiny little room. it's really TINY la. and i cant imagine how the 11 of us are gonna sleep in it tonight.
8pm. commencement of BBQ.
this chalet was organised to celebrate the birthdays of 3 dudes, all having their respective days in a chronological sequence of days. and so, i was glad la, i havent seen my friends for a realllly long time. kinda missed them, though i was never really close to any of them.
birthday boy cum chef for the night BBQing the food, in boxers.
another pic of the food cooking on the grill. looks good.
final picture. food on a plate.
BBQ food turned out to be nice. i loved the chicken wings. but the best food for the night would be the spicy sotongs. those tasted really heavenly but they came only in small packagings, and we have to wait ages to get one small packet cooked. but it's worth the wait, once it's cooked, we scramble over to open the burning hot alumiminium foil to unravel the goodness inside.
i kept eating and eating. BBQ lasted til 12pm, from there we celebrated the birthday of Joseph. happy 18th la uncle. and also in advance, 2 more dudes. downed another chicken wing after another, and occasionally some hotdogs or crabsticks. i feel like a fucking pig ahhah. and i kept drinking those soft drinks and plain water almost nonstop, until my stomach got really bloated and i felt super uncomfortable. like as if im pregnant like that. engaged in a pissing spree.
then. i got tired of eating and went upstairs to chill in the aircon room. watched some late night anime on arts central to kill time. while the rest were still slacking downstairs. the night is still YOUNG la, only 12am, so early. went downstairs again later and walked around with them in a group, a little boring already la. the real fun part is coming soon...
soon the final guy came around 2-3am i cant remember. he brought with him some orange juice and VODKA. but we didnt drink straight away la, around 4am, we sat in a circle to play some lame but funny group games. the forfeit is to wack the shit out of the person whoever screws up the rules in our game, seriously damn funny la. and the language among us was super filthy. every 30 seconds, the words "fuck, cheebye, kanina" would fill up the room. then we got to the sweet part of the night. ALCOHOL!
i drank around 4 cups. and sooner later my vision started getting a little blurry and i couldnt move properly. it got irritating, but seriously i dont think i was drunk la. maybe just because i didnt have enough sleep. and i slept the earliest among the rest who were busy cracking jokes and deep in conversation. i swear, it's really hard to sleep under that situation, one couldnt feel how NOISY it was.
they didnt sleep till around 9am. omg. ok la, what happened after that isnt so interesting already. and now, i'm back home already, and im gona sleep early tonight. cheers.
i have seen so many loving faces
they turn back and leave with looks of regret
the road goes and i am finding home in it
Purple Rose;
2:56 AM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
hullo. havent updated in a thousand years. almost a week, to be exact. because everytime i think of blogging, the bed looks so inviting, so i decided to take a "nap" and duh, resulting in me procrastinating. but now, since i have the spare time, i have about an hour to blog everything in my extremely boring life, before the big soccer match of the night. i cant wait.
WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY, FRIDAY
i forgot what happened on these 3 days, so im scraping them off and focussing on the other remaining days. anyway i didnt do anything much these few days, just the regular lazy guy's life, mostly spending the entire day in bed and watching up to eat, rinse and repeat.
SATURDAY.
2nd and final japanese mock test. but i have a little confidence this time. i did around 2 past year papers the night before. and studied like, a whopping 3 and a half hours. i finally forced myself out of my comfort zone and got my ass on the chair at the "study desk", fished out those papers, got a pencil and started scribbling.
after doing some self-marking, i didnt do quite badly, from those little mistakes, it was definitely above 300 out of 400. then went to do the final paper from the book. the 2004 paper. it had a disc that came along with it, so that i could do the listening excercise, and miraculously, one section of the listening part, i got full marks. just my luck, i guess.
115pm.
reached ikoma school. im early. paper was due to start at 130pm. i came armed with a plastic bag full of donuts. some people may find it weird for me to eat and study at the same time, but i've been doing that for the past year. classroom 8 was our designated place for the test. but it was full, because i was early. instead of our usual Watanabe sensei, today we were replaced by a different teacher, Yamane sensei. some sort of similar to whatever we have in secondary schools when we have our exams, we have different invigilators.
130pm.
hajimete kudasai (please start)
picked up my pencil and started writing furiously. i always got this bad habit of rushing through my work, because time is extremely precious to me, but it's a little risky though, since it could spell careless mistakes in a blink of an eye. the first few pages were a breeze to me, i whizzed through like a bullet train. the last few pages got a little annoying. because i didnt the meaning of some words. fuck.
second paper, listening compre.
i was happier as i was sitting somewhat closer to the radio this time, compared to my last test, where i was busy daydreaming away at the last row. inevitably, i struggled hearing some questions, either my brain got entangled when trying to make out what they were saying or the audio simply sucks, too loud until it was hard to hear what they were clearly saying. verdict for this section, just a normal pass would suffice.
break, before the 3rd and final section.
this section was worth the most marks. i didnt have much of a problem doing it, but i still bit my nails a little, i just feel a little unconfident for this paper. dream score for the entire paper? 300 as a minimum score.
that's saturday for you.
SUNDAY.
the sleep i had the night before was probably one of the best ever i had. maybe because of the position i slept, the way the pillows were put. i definitely enjoyed it. woke up around 120pm. having aural class at 3pm later. got my lazy ass out of bed and went to shower. the water's good. this heater seems so special. even though i set it to somewhat hottest temperature, the water came out in a blend of temperatures, and it keeps switching. like, warm, then a little cold, warm again. it feels so good, i could fall asleep anytime. how i wished for a bathtub...
after showering, returned to my room, and i got an sms from some weird number that called earlier in the morning but i was too lazy to get up to pick up the call. and so. it was my music teacher. my music class had been cancelled and pushed forward to this coming wednesday. cool, i get stay home. idled at home till 530pm.
left home and went for CP to meet jerirudustbin for dinner. i reached around 545pm, while she reached around 630pm -_- ok i'm a good waiter. 86-ed to jalan kayu. i havent eaten their cheese prata for almost a month, and i'm craving for it.
got seated and done with our orders by 7pm. and like any other coffeeshop, this place is swarming with stray cats. i spotted around like, 4 of them? all of different shapes and sizes, and different levels of desperado-ness for food also. ok and so, i noticed the sun was setting and i took a pic.
the skyview is so pretty.
my order came first. hahah. ordered 2 cheese pratas. since the pratas are sizzling hot, i decided to wait for her food to come also, so it would be appropriate, one eating earlier than the other just feels rude.
my 2 cheese pratas.
her order took quite some time to arrive. she ordered 2 egg pratas. what a big load of fat. hahah. while eating, cracked a little indian jokes, but i was careful about my volume as i didnt want them to get offended. hahah. it was fun.
halfway throughout the meal. i already ate finish my 2 pratas, and she barely finished one -_-
then the weather got a little annoying. it started drizzling a LITTLE. and it's really a little. and only for a really short while also. some patrons sitting outside starting moving in, while the shelter thing started coming out. we stopped our meal halfway and went inside too. then it stopped drizzling -_- wtf. i was feeling semi-full and she still hasnt finished one prata. so i challenged myself to take on another cheese prata. ugh, i was super full already la, after eating half of it. in the end she didnt finish hers and i didnt finish mine too. a total of 3 and 3/4 pratas in my stomach.
our bill slip had something funny on it. here's a pic.
the word, "delicious" just seems weird. hahah.
ok. and so, i was full like fuck. and the night is still young, so we took a walk around the estate to kill time and oogle at the big and pretty houses. i envy rich people! armed with a large houses, posh cars. what more can i say. a life of absolute luxury.
walked and walked. most houses have really cute dogs. but they are fierce as hell. and some owners keep up to 4 dogs, wtf? those big dogs freak us out. their barks are so intimidating la. if the owner didnt lock their gate, they come runnning at us, god knows, that would be the last of us. hahah. and later, i came across this stinky, filthy house, and it looks really creepy.
a haunted house, maybe?
and jerirubin was scared as hell. hahah. i dont see anything scary about this, maybe if we go in, then things would change. i'll freak out for sure la.
we walked and walked. and soon we came to a valley of the not-so-rich people. the houses here are mostly single storeys and some of the houses really look like crap. like as if the owner has given up cleaning the house. and there was this particular house.. the entire entrance was like filled with vegetation, and the owner seems nowhere in site. more like jungle boy's house.
it feels like as if im walking across a neighbourhood in malaysia. yuck.
jerirubin in "malaysia"
walked all the way to the end, and we saw that the end was kinda creepy. it was dark as hell, and it looked like a jungle out there, i could barely see 1km through it, it's really too dark. so scary..
then i saw this cat sitting on a car. i patted it since it didnt feel intimidated by my presence but it got up later and moved somewhere else.
grumpy cat.
walked a little while more and i was bored so took a lame picture.
mai hump.
we returned back to the stretch of road at jalan kayu again, tired from all that walking, exploring. someday, i hope to be as rich as those people we saw. went to 7 eleven to get ourselves some refreshments. i got myself a mild vodka, she got a newpaper and a normal drink. from there, we walked to the LRT station, along this really secluded and quiet roadside, filled with drunk indians loitering around.
finished my drink and threw the glass bottle into the jungle nearby. the LRT station was damn empty la.
final picture. mild vodka.
on the LRT, we didnt pay much attention of the stations and in the end we made 2 damn loops around the whole of sk. and we were on the wrong line all this while -_- and soon, i was starting to get a major headache, maybe because of the alcohol. or maybe the idea of prata + alcohol = major headache. but it died away quickly la.
got off at SK station. went to the toilet, and not long later, we parted ways. i'm beat. it was one tiring night.
alright. the major soccer match had already started and i'm gonna end right here. good night.
if only i had truthfully seen
that night we'll never relive
but you and i could not go and walk away
just close your eyes
you'll never see me crashing down
Purple Rose;
6:49 AM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
uh. hullo. was supposed to have this entry up by yesterday, but i got tired and dozed off, all the way till next morning. the weather has been realllly unpredictable these days. it's irritating, as it would affect what i want to wear best to suit the weather conditions.
MONDAY.
today's quite a fun day. i like. hahah. i got an invitation the night before to join a bowling session. and duh, i agreed, i needed the time to kill. and also, monday's a day where the O level students would pop the champagne after 9am. the final paper, and the feeling is ecstatic once the invigilator rounds up the time. i felt the same way exactly a year ago. and yes, the holiday plans are out are we go out like almost everyday. it's truly one of the highest peaks of high school life.
i woke up around 10am to prepare myself. and the weather seemed merciless. so damn hot. so i dressed lightly, and stayed away from the dark shirt colors or else i could prepare for a sweat fest. Venue? Katong shopping center. i took quite a while to reach there as i dont have any direct buses from my place. and it's my first time going there, alone, i almost missed the stop. luckily i wasnt day-dreaming.
Joel and gang were at the LANshop but they didnt specify where they were, so i had a hard time searching for them. and worst, he gave me a wrong floor, and i ran like all around that wrong floor but just couldnt find that damn lanshop. cut the waiting part, i finally met them at the entrance of the complex later -_-
ok, so on to the fun part of the day. BOWLING yeahh. and this is my FIRST time ever playing. and i know nuts about the game la duh. so, we had to rent bowling shoes at the counter as the very first thing. i dont understand why la, maybe the floor too slippery or something. and here comes the funny part. there were a total of 4 of us, and in order, our shoe sizes were 6,7, 8 and 9. hahah cool right. what a coincidence.
ON to the gameeee. we were assigned to lanes 11 and 12, which were on the extreme right. i just got my shoes on and damn, i look retarded. the colors are just too striking la, i look like some clown. the other dudes were busy searching for their bowling balls respectively. then i got on to searching too. some balls were heavy like fuck. and some weigh just right, but the holes are just too small. and i forced in my thumb into one ball and shit!!! it got stuck and i had to struggle like some faggot to get it out and it hurts like crazy.
got the game started. and this game was really spastic. ok, i guess most of them understand, im a total n00b to this game. so i have the right to be shitty. and 90% of my bowling attempts automatically went to the LONGKANG. like wtf.. BUT, i managed to get 2 strikes. which is obviously beginner's luck la hahah. and then... one of joel's friends was funny. instead of BOWLING, he was like, THROWING the damn ball. and it is really damn noisy when the ball hits the ground. like he's aiming to break the floor. bowling is hell fun though. i cant wait to play agaiN!
but.. our experience was ruined a little, thanks to the faulty machines la. the score system was fucked up, like sometimes we hit only a few pins, it registered that as a STRIKE. and the machine often hangs. we were like >: (
some pictures : ) OUR bowling place.
our BALLS. that purple ball is my lucky charm.. only for a while..
the scoreboard. DONT LAUGH ok. look at the amount of zeros in my score. (meaning i hit totally nothing)
one more scoreboard pic. i have a strike on my first bowl in a new game! ladyluck i guess : D
mentos. hahah, no la, somemore BALL pics.
after about an hour of retarded fun we went downstairs for lunch. the katong shopping complex's coffeeshop got renovated and it looks so much better now. had a simple meal of chicken rice. all of us got the same thing la. $4 a plate. seems a littleee expensive as most places usually charge $3 a plate. the food was not bad, it was quite good. the only thing i hated was the soup, it had chicken feet in it and i think it tasted like crap.
tsugi ni(next)
one of his friend's had to leave so it just leaves with the 3 of us. so we went to play pool at the basement. and this place has the cheapest pool rate that i ever known. $3 an hour. and it was empty like hell also, only one table was used. but the quality of the pool tables justifies the price la. the tables were like shit. i mean it. and this match was boring. we all played like zombies, almost dozing off. and i was suay la, i may be leading most of the matches, but i ending up screwing up the last shot on the final ball, and i lost every match. except for the final one, i won fair and square, but i'm beat. tired.
got home and it was only 530pm. showered and did the usual shit and turned in at 8pm, all the way till next morning. i feel like a pig.
TUESDAY morning. (today)
i woke up at 5am. i couldnt sleep back. that accumulates to a total of 9 hours of sleep. which is normal. attempts to resume sleeping failed so i went to the balcony and played guitar, trying to create new guitar riffs for my new song which is only like 30% complete. and time passed in a flash, it was soon 645am and mom woke up. got away from the balcony at 7am and watched 3 episodes of Goong on the second last DVD. one more disc to go and i'm done with the whole season. i love this show <3333333333333
dad got home from work and was actually surprised that im up this early. arh. so hungry and it's only like 1015am. my mom fried popiahs but i hated popiahs because they contain too much vegetables inside. so i got showered and went downstairs for breakfast at Mac. ate something which i havent tried in a long, long time. hotcakes w/ sausage meal, yum.
went back upstairs and i was really bored. i just didnt want to face a screen for the rest of the day. it's really sian. eventually i ended up sleeping again from 12pm onwards all the way till 5pm. and my god, 5pm, i woke up and i had this terrible headache. maybe i've been sleeping too much. ughhh. it was killing me la. went downstairs once more to buy nachos w/ cheese at cheers. ate it and got sick of it already.
unexpectedly, i was saved from boredom for the entire evening after receiving a call from muneh, who requested to have dinner later. finally. i was awaiting someone to ask me out. went out with a 40% charged laptop to meet him at hougang interchange. and the bus took like 59025 years.
reached CP at 915pm and went to KFC. i didnt feel like eating after a while, so all i had was a large iced lemon tea. talk, talk, talk and i showed him the dvd from the album my sis got for me in australia. it's irritating to know that this band,(my current love) is slowly getting to the point of being mainstream. i hate that, it destroys them.
and by 10pm, we left for home. CP is a ghost-town at this hour.
NOW.
it's close to 12pm. and i dont feel sleepy at all. must be because of all that damn sleep i had in the afternoon. and i havent had any meals ever since after 12pm. but weirdly, i dont feel hungry at all. maybe i'll just grab a bite in the kitchen later, shower and try to sleep.
since the most of us should know by now that PS3 has been released not long ago. i've seen shops selling them at really retarded prices. hahah i wonder which idiot would be actually dumb enough to purchase them. for now, the "reasonable" price of a PS3 here would be between $1499 and $1699.
and this is what i see, and it's being sold HERE in singapore.
hhaha. how insane. if i had the cash to burn, i'd rather top up a few hundred bucks more and get a Macbook PRO, which is more worth it. alright. i'm off. goodnight people.
and every word that you said
it brought me closer to sin
I close my eyes and pretend its all fading
Your words are like weapons why can't you protect me
Purple Rose;
6:52 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006
hullo. it's been a loooong and extremely boring weekend for me. one thing for sure, i havent done that assignment that im supposed to be handing in "ASAP", which meant tmr. i didnt have the mood to get started. my fate is already decided la, not use doing it. ok. my sister's gone to the airport for her flight back to aussie but i didnt follow, i just bid her goodbye at the doorstep. Bon Voyage, sis.
FRIDAY.
uh. i slept around 630am the night before? but i woke up at 12 pm instead, which is weird. now it seems like my body's getting lesser and lesser sleep but feeling ok with it. dad went out. and i spent the whole afternoon being a couch potato. and stomach rumbling like hell. being jobless is horrible la. i still have hope, even though it is extremely difficult to find a job that suits to my needs, not being a fussy bitch, but i only can work on weekdays because my weekends are packed. just please, no working at fastfood outlets, flyer distributors, surveyors. i really regret declining my previous job interview. arghhhhh.
the only good thing for that day was the cheese cake that i bought from the mall below. and MmMMmmMM it is dammmmn nice. almost $8 for a whole cheese cake of decent size might sound throat-slicing, but actually, it is worth it. i can compare this to starbucks selling ONE pathetic slice of cheesecake for fucking $5?!
look, but no tasting, hahah.
and so. that summarises up friday, truly boring me to tears.
SATURDAY.
this is the day. i'm getting my results from my JLPT mock test a week before. fucckkk, even though i've passed. i'm still not satisfied with the 65.5% percentage. i feel it is tooo low. i was expecting like... at least 75%? and yah, i was bitching about the listening compre being too difficult and only being played ONCE, i failed that section. 7 out of 20. patheticccc. and naturally, i would be curious to know about how my other classmates fared for the paper.. then i asked Z-san, and she got a whopping 87.5% score!!! and another got only slightly lower score. ok. im feeling really DUMB. i'm going to chiong go study my japanese notes soon someday in the coming week. actually, before this mock test, the night before, i ended up having a long phone conversation that stretched overnight and i didnt even get a chance to touch my notes for any revision as i was too tired. damnnnnnit.
there's another mock test, the final one before the real thing, next week. and i hope i dont procrastinate this time. and so.. when i got home later after class, (i skipped my usual routine of eating out after classes, it saved me $) i got pissed. SOMEONE has been playing my guitar without my fucking permission. i really hate it when my belongings are used without seeking my permission. and duh, it was the same culprit la. that dick uncle again. and he even fucked around with my multi effects unit, but THANKFULLY he didnt delete any of my patches or i swear i will kill him. i'll find new steps to stop this from happening again. not only did he just play my guitar, he even played my PSP BEFORE when i forgot to bring it out with me, and he unravelled some erm... content from my video folder. YALAH, I KEEP PORN SO WAT. his cheeky grin annoys the shit out of me.
i tried to take photo of my JLPT results slip, but my V3's camera was so shitty. that it was completely blurrified so i just deleted the stupid photo. and donuts ROCK every saturday.
SUNDAY.
this is probably a new record. i slept at 1am last night. and woke up at 9am today. and i couldnt sleep back, most probably because my aircon was freezing. and it was freaking bright when i brushed aside my curtains. morning sunshine poured in like crazy. then i turned on my laptop and did the same shit that i always do. mom only woke up at 10am and she cleaned up my bed and stuff. i was browsing ps3 stuff online. this new console by sony is giving me orgasms la. i kept showing my mom videos of anything related to this console. hahah. (it is obvious i really would do anything to get my hands on this)
then mom offered to make breakfast for me. but i told her i hated her food. but she coaxed me into trying what she just cooked. so, since im famished, i tried it. it was OK la. i take back my words. and this morning seemed to move slower than most mornings. i dont know why. i have classes later at around 3. after eating, it was barely ELEVEN.
215pm.
dad had to go somewhere, and that's a good thing, i got a free lift to some random MRT station. he dropped me off at Bishan MRT. and so, i had my usual classes later, and i learnt some new stuff. im happy. went over to Funan Mall after class as i had direct access there via a bridge, it's convenient. no need to wait years to cross the fucking road. omgomgomg, i saw something that made me cum in my pants. Gamescore was advertising PS3!!!! i saw the box hanging at the entrance of their store. so i blasted in. some dude was testing out a PS3 set, but sadly why must it be a boring racing game? i'd rather they put in RESISTANCE, some kickass first person shooter and that would flaunt's the PS3's capabilities. but nevertheless, the ps3 still amazed me.
but seriously, the price is insane. 1.5k for a console is wayyy overrpriced. so, i left the shop and went down to the korean food stall. tried something different today, bought 3 beef sticks and the same fish dough sausage. heaven. went home. and things start getting boring.
i decided to watch the movie that i just downloaded via Bittorrent. Texas Chainsaw Massacre : The Beginning. i'm really curious to watch this show as there is no way in hell i can watch it in theatres here since it's rated R21. and also, it was inspired by a true story. well, after watching it, i can say, it is one hell of a gruesome movie. those gory scenes are really... VOMIT inducing. ok picture this in ur head. a guy who's pinned down on the floor, and trying desperately to break free, and this psycho saws his BODY IN HALF with a fucking chainsaw and blood spurted endlessly and i could see the agony he's going through while getting severed.
ok, that's one sick show. i dont think i'll ever wanna watch it again.
i guess the most of us should know this as a singaporean ; GST is going up again, to 7% this time. expensiveeee la.
The hopes of better days
And a love that won't fade away
And I've been feeling so lost, but I won't let it show
Purple Rose;
5:56 AM
Friday, November 17, 2006
uh. hullo. i just woke up like 4pm today. from almost an entire sleepless night thanks to the endless phone chatting like some girl. hahah. ok. anyway, a call disrupted my sleep at 330pm. and omg, it was a staff from my school. my heart was definitely beating faster la. i was asked to submit an assignment that i didnt do ASAP, by next monday. fuckk. i said ok, and hung up. but in my mind, im running all over the place. like.. what should i doo.. then i went back to bed, but 15 minutes later i got a call from my guitar skills teacher, and this time i panicked, i didnt pick up the call at all. i knew it was something negative. i guess im overreacting.
anyway. since it's just a lazy afternoon. i was bored and did some stuff i saw some dabidu's blog.
i guess this is a little bullshit. so untrue.
| Your Birthdate: March 21 |
You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature.
Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas.
People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life.
You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone.
Your strength: Your thirst for adventure
Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures
Your power color: Hot pink
Your power symbol: Figure eight
Your power month: March |
ok here's another pile of bullshitty information i got from doing this weird quiz.
| You Are a Henna Gaijin! |
You're not Japanese, but you wish you were!
You can use chopsticks with your eyes closed, and you've memorized hundreds of Kanji.
You even answer your phone "moshi moshi."
While the number of anime videos you've seen is way higher than the number of dates you've been on, there's hope.
Play the sexy, mysterous gaijin, and you'll have plenty of Japanese meat. |
ok. finally something that makes sense : )
| Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me" |
A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.
Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out
Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking
What turns you off: fighting and conflict
Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love |
final piece. this one is true. haha.
| You Should Travel to Japan |
From freak sightings in Harajuku to awesome sashimi, you'll love Japan.
And who knows? You might end up on Japanese TV! |
ok i guess im off. anyeong.
Purple Rose;
12:31 AM
Thursday, November 16, 2006
hullo. on a normal thursday morning. the normal things go on as usual. maybe for a little mild heartattack in the early afternoon. well, today's still a fine day.
FRIDAY night, approximately 1am.
i reached home, woah.. that was one hell of a night outside. it was a little different from usual nights i spend outside. my laptop has always be my side whenever i go out nowadays. even since i bought this baby back on August 12. i treasure it like hell. and on that extremely long and boring trip back on the North South line train, watching episode 6 of Death Note on my lappie totally killed time faster than ever.
i wasnt really hungry when i got home this time, but im positively sure i'll be raiding the refrigerator in about an hour's time due to my extremely fast digestive system. sitting around in my room later munching tidbits and watching shows. duh, that's my lifestyle i have to resort too when i'm really too free. no job = no life. before i knew it, it's already 645am. and went to sleep.
THURSDAY.
woke up at 3pm. asked my dad whether he had bought The Newpaper as i badly wanted it, just to browse the jobs section. actually it's quite useless browsing at this time, but i just needed to find a way to entertain myself. and meh, no part time jobs that suits my taste. i guess i could be really picky at times. went back to my room and switched on my laptop. and there was this annoying problem. my internal speakers had no sound. and i cant control it either. wtf. i didnt do anything to it? so i was forced to use external speakers for the whole day. this sucks. barely a few months and all these shit comes up. makes me lose a little trust in Apple. btw, dad passed me a letter i received from JCS(japanese cultural society), and it was regarding my JLPT exam, and it had my exam pass in it, shall post a pic of it in the later.
5pm.
showered. went down to the mall below to grab myself something to satisfy my cravings. a HIY(heat up urself) pizza. some days back, i was browsing american boards and saw a thread on Pizza. and their selections of pizza outlets there puts us to shame. and so, i just had to eat pizza. bought this weird brand which i never seen before, but it serves at least a bigger size rather than those lame local branded puny-sized pizzas.
Pepperoni Pizza. sound australian brand, and it bursted a hole in my wallet. $8.70 damnitttt.
i hope it tastes as good as it looks. so i heated it up. and i didnt really payed attention to it when it was cooking in the microwave so it turned out to be a little overheated and black on a side, but it's just a LITTLE. i enjoyed it even though the crust is a little hard i wonder why. nevertheless, that's an ok pizza. i have to say pizza's are genereally overpriced, but they sure taste good. well, since im unemployed now, i could kiss my dream of dining in a Pizza restaurant good bye.
mom was watching Goong on TV since it was like 7. i watched Goong in the comfort of my room on the lappy, making use of the DVDs duh, watching those episodes i missed over a snack of 2 Apples and a tall glass of iced peach tea. liew. very sad leh, i cried a little at the end. and my laptop was still having problems with the internal speakers, definitely NOT GOOD.
and bleh, i guess the only thing i ate for the whole day which sums up all three important meals in a day is that pepperoni pizza. so unhealthy la. those apples keep my hunger suppressed for now. and so, i guess i cant really watch anymore goong episodes as i'm starting to fidget in my seat.
and i unplugged the cable linking the external speaker to my laptop and wth, my laptop speakers are up and running. that's weird? im happy now la. at least something off my chest. no need to bring my laptop all the way down to orchard cineleisure just to check for some small problem.
feeling hungry again. before closing this entry, here are some photos.
here's a pistachio nougat all the way from australia. yummy.
and this is taken yesterday, out of sheer boredom. damn, my hair texture looks dryer than ever.
and the final picture, JLPT exam pass. i look retarded i guess. i hate that photo. none of you shall ever know my real name. my identity is kept secret.
iie sHo tIrEd nOwXx.
ok good night peeps.
they took his crown,
there's nothing more left more of him now
I appreciate, now that they choose to ignore
I cant set her free to go.
Purple Rose;
6:37 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
hulllo. kinda neglected my blog once more. umm, most of you should know the reason why by now. havent blogged in about 3 days or so. sorry, dear blog.
MONDAY.
got to know the verdict of my job application. the same old job i did a year back. it wasnt nice to know. the boss is a dick. he doesnt wanna hire me, asshole. though i didnt hear his comments about me first hand, i got really pissed at some of the comments he made, as they werent true. that's the final straw la, though my mom and him are friends, no way in hell am i gonna buy anything from his store ever again.
what a rude awakening for me though. wake up to hearing so much negative stuff. and once again, it was one of those boring days. just sat and rotted home for the whole day, idling on 2 computers, possibility of my eyesight to deteriorate again. and wasting my nights away, just by facing 2 screens, and heavily snacking away. uhh. i wont put on any weight anyway.
TUESDAY.
slept at 630am the night before. there's just no way i could sleep any earlier la. it seems that whenever after i shower at night, i would go back to face those 2 screens again, and just either YouTube the night away, or plainly browsing forums and time really flies. but i just dont understand how hard it is to do such a simple task of SLEEPING.
1130am.
"wake up. wake up."
uhhh. what?
and so. it was my dad shaking me up at this hour. i was still in a daze. i was told that my mom had found a job for me. and arranged an interview for me later at 3pm. Venue? Bishan. some admin-related work in the office. and my dad was supposed to "chauffeur" me there. i nodded, and went back to dreamland.
230pm.
i was woken up again. but this time, i sat there thinking for a while. then eventually i made up my mind and rejected this interview. i didnt really know why, but i guess it was a stupid decision. i guess i was too sleepy at that time then. if i had this job, it would be 2609078358 times better than just sitting home, wasting every single second of my life away.
now's the fun bit of the day. i picked up my guitar, played it once, and yuck, the strings sounded like crap. and finally, i overcame lazy-ness and restringed my guitar. and it now sounds like heaven. maybe except for a tiny problem on a last string. sat down in the balcony and begin tweaking around with the multi effects unit, it was a great time, in comfort too, thanks to the pillows which i shifted there. hahah.
in the evening.
mom came back. i was lying face-down, asleep in the balcony after all the guitar-ing. the noise from the tv woke me up. and it was goong. i stopped watching goong on tv ever since i had their dvd. and a miracle happened. i only had ONE glass of peach tea for the day(and night). but it was a big glass though. this night was rather different la, instead of my usual night activities, filled with chips, drinks and nonstop youtubing, i took a shower at 1230am, directly after dinner with sis, and i went straight to bed at 1am.
TODAY.
i woke up at 230pm -_- that's like 13 and a half hours of sleep. i could have woken up at 11am, but the weather conditions tempt to continue sleeping. hahah. and my sister was surprised that i actually slept that early last night. and now, it's close to 5pm, and i'm all alone at home. my sis could never stay home duh. and dad's out. but i have something in mind to do. i'm going out soon. like, finally. after being "jailed" home these days.
but... my stomach is growling. i only ate like, these 2 pieces of dough with curry-powder like fillings, and 2 glasses of milk for my brunch. pathetic. this house needs FOOD. the refrigerator's disappointing. only filled with nothing but chocolates and candies, eggs, milk, peach tea concentrate, some random bottles filled with weird liquids and nothing else. the cupboard's filled with instant noodle packets, but i ate like 3 packets last night, and i have no mood to try them again.
recently, like 4 days ago, PS3 was released. with specs almost crushing it's microsoft rival and a drooling game lineup, this console is going to own. for now, we do not have an official launch here(i think), shops have already been bringing in parallel imports, and the price, is SHIT. $1600 for a console is ridiculous. that's equivalent to buying an entirely new PC. meh. i guess i could only dream of owning this console.
and also. local news. there's this 17 year old dude who got charged for using another person's unsecured wireless internet connection, it's like wtf. he got slapped a 3 YEAR JAIL sentence. pretty HARSH i have to say. it's not just him, but many laptop-owning youngsters out there who are also doing this, including me. not everyone might be it-savvy, especially in a neighbourhood, sometimes when i was sit down under any random void deck, my laptop is bound to auto connect to whoever's unsecured network and tadah i got free internet but im going against the law. i feel for this guy. he's just suay i guess.
ok. i guess i'll shower now and take off. i really need to have a full meal out. hungry.. bye!
Don't let them know you're watching the situation crumble
These things, they take time
And i know, yes, they should be better now
She's watching me awkwardly from a distance
Should I care?
Purple Rose;
11:21 PM
Saturday, November 11, 2006
umm. hullo. today was a reasonably good day. though everything didnt seem to go my way(nothing new?), my mood still remained cheerful throughout, and i kinda liked today. but first, a little backtrackking as usual.
FRIDAY night.
err. something unexpected happened la. my mom was like watching Goong, and it was gonna end soon as it was close to 8pm. i wasnt watching as i already planned a Goong marathon someday, i could watch till my eyeballs roll out of its sockets. then i was walking along the livingroom, actually intending to get myself a glass of peach tea. then i saw SOMETHING outside. dont worry, it is nothing supernatural la, it's my SISTERRR. i was like wtf?? was she supposed to be working in aussie at the moment? then my mom looked up and she was confused too. even my mom doesnt know that she's coming back. so it was a surprise la. she came back. havent seen her in close to 4 months.
then the first thing she said when she saw me was, "eh why ur hair so weird? like helmet like dat." > : ( first thing she said to me was trying to annoy me already. but im a nice guy. since it's a rarity that she comes back here, i decided to play nice. unloaded her giant luggage and inside was like the amazon forest. messy beyond description. then she pulled out a few treats. firstly, 2 GIANT, and i mean GIANT, bags of mini nougats of different "flavors". and lastly a bag of assorted chocolates from Darrell Leah. and those chocolates really pack a punch. i couldnt stop eating it la. but i kinda dont like caramel already. so sticky. and takes 480 bites to finish one mini piece of choc with a caramel center.
and so.. the room beside mine suddenly became lively again. after 4 months. haiyah. if only she told me earlier than she was coming back, i could have asked her to bring back more australian treats. after getting a little sick of the chocolates already, i went downstairs to get myself somemore snacks for the night. Nachos with Cheese again, and a bag of twisties. slacked the whole night off on the phone, having bites in between a conversation and it sounds irritating over the phone with the food munching sound hahah, and watching Happy Tree Friends.
5am.
showered. and ready to hit the bed any time. but, i didnt have the mood to sleep totally. and it's getting on my nerves. downloaded a new episode of death note on my PC, switched off the monitor and i throw myself on the bed in a bid to fall asleep. but it just doesnt work la. roll here roll there. i come back to the same situation. then i went to the balcony, my music getaway. i kinda refurnished it myself adding a mini "mattress" and 2 big pillows. and it could be quite a comfortable place to sleep in. i fell asleep there a few nights before and my mother woke me up at 645am, telling me to not waste the aircon in my room and go back there to sleep, where it is more comfortable. and so, this time, it failed. i still couldnt bring myself to sleep. i just played a little guitar, unplugged till daybreak. and eventually forcing my eyes shut at 715am.
SATURDAY.
i had at least 3 hours of sleep. and today, was a JLPT mock test. and shittttt, i forgot to revise the night before. and the weather was a bitch this morning. merciless, scorching heat. but i still chose to wear black from head to toe. my mom chided me to change into something of a diff color as the weather is a real torture. but in the end i just went to school wearing whatever i was wearing. but things changed in an instant when i reached town. from, scorching skies in Hougang to Reigning Dark Skies in Orchard. it was hell cooling la, i'm wearing something that suits the weather perfectly.
meanwhile...
In class. i was confused. Watanabe sensei wasnt around? and so were other students, around 3 of them were visibly absent. and replacing sensei was the counter lady. she issued us our answer scripts and question booklets and we started shortly after. aiya, i was scratching my head at some of the questions la, i forgot some of my chinese characters. then i got really frustrated. but i think i did quite okay for the first paper.
Tsugini(next)
was the killer paper. LISTENING COMPREEEEEE. it started straight after the previous paper. and i wasnt really paying much attention. the hardest thing abt this compre is, it is only played ONCE, and no repeats, so if one misses the conversation for one particular question, it's a good zero marks awarded for that question. so, it really trains us to be ATTENTIVE. but sadly i wasnt. aiyaaaa, nvm, there's a 2nd mock test in 2 weeks' time, i hope to get my dream score of 300/400!
halfway throughout the list. compre, i was confused by one question as i didnt get what was the person saying, so i let out a really loud "HUH?" then some students in front were all giggling hahah. if i did that in a real exam i would most probably get a fat big zero.
arghh. im quite lazy and tired to continue blogging, i'll blog again ASAP.
i wouldnt trade everything
even for just for a taste
i'll live with the loneliness
and i wont forget
i was never your best bet.
Purple Rose;
7:17 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
umm. today was a bitchy day. err, not really la actually, it's just the start of the day which pissed me off. imagine having only AN HOUR, i repeat, ONE HOUR of sleep, and waking up to go to school. One miraculous thing for sure is, i dont feel sleepy, i just naturally got up but i didnt shower because i did so 2 hours ago? got dressed, and nevre really bothered to doll up as it's a waste of time and my hair is so short now anyway. grabbed my guitar bag and left home. it was a fricking bright morning, my eyes are just not adjusted to the level of brightness yet.
THURSDAY.
830am.
walked briskly to the bustop and noticed that there were not much people waiting, so i predicted, my bus just left. took 159 for a change. the mrt was kinda packed also, and there was no chance for me to sit, so i had to stand all the way with a bag that weighs almost equivalent to a 3 year old kid. and so, upon reaching my bustop later, i thought i was fortunate as i didnt have to wait any longer than 5 minutes for my bus to appear, but.. it's just fucked up to get caught up in a heavily congested road later on, and spent like almost fucking 10 minutes at the traffic light. and "that almost 10 minutes" was extremely precious to me and upon my arrival to the school auditorium, where my exam was, i was told at the door that i had already failed the exam.
fucking hell. and so, i was 9 minutes late for the real thing, and that made me fail instantly. my pleas fell on the deaf ears of the HOD of music programme. no words can describe how pissed i was at that time. i had a mixture of emotions too, anger, a little dose of depression, confusion and whatever else negative. so, i wasted my fucking time going to school in the early morning in the first place. all my efforts of memorising those scales and practicing them went down the drain.
i just walked out of the school gates, remaining no longer than 10 minutes in school. sometimes i wished i had the power to manipulate time. if i had that gift, i would be able to fix so many missing pieces of my life. i will never be late for school, i could go back in time to fix some stuff and gain whatever which was RIGHTFULLY mine. from friendships to relationships, just name it. with all that done, i wouldnt have been entangled in the mess now.
had nowhere to go in mind. it was like only freaking 945am. early as fuck. i just had to go with the flow, the next bus that came was 30, so i just took it, it goes to Old Airport Road, a foodie paradise. as expected, most of the stalls were closed, including my favorite Wanton Mee stall. fuckkkkk. i spotted another wanton mee stall and ordered from it. though i dont really feel hungry, i'm eating just to drown all my feelings away. and the wantoon noodle from this stall was not bad, but i still think my fav stall tastes better. and then. while i was busy indulging myself, there was this lady who kept pestering me in chinese to buy a copy of straits times as it was the copy she had. at first i said NO, then she continued to annoy me and in the end i gave in and bought it, i just needed to shoo her away.
took a direct bus down to ESPLANADE. i had an overdue book to return. and this book is borrowed under my friend's IC, not mine, if he finds out, he'll kill me. loitered around for a while and found out it was boring and pointless. like, 90% of the shops were not even open yet and barely people around too. mostly, i saw foreigners taking pictures around Esplanade, from the regular ang mohs, to a group of japanese girls.
MRT-ed and walked to Peace Center. next destination in mind, Citymusic. went there just to get a new pack of strings for my guitar, and i think i bought oversized strings, but i didnt really bother. went home from there. it sucks walking around and spending the entire day alone. got home at around 12pm, and noticed a bunch of giant flowers outside this certain store. and i was wondering what was all the hype for. and ya, SAKAE SUSHI @ Hg Pt, officially opened today. dining there brought me back some memories.
rested at home. i didnt have to courage to tell my parents the truth. one day, they'll find out themselves. telling now would only ruin my holiday mood. showered and napped the entire afternoon.
nightfall.
mom came back with an unexpected surprise for me. she bought the GOONG dvd. and so. i was happy la, since i have been missing out on so many damn episodes whenever im out and not being back home in time to catch the show.
damn. im feeling hungrier than ever now. should have tabao-ed a packet of BBQ chicken wing rice just now when i was out having fun. how inconvenient of Cheers downstairs to shut off their 24 hour service. Late-Night-Junk-Food-Junkies like me have to suffer. urgh. ok. some pictures below before i have to rack my brains to think of what to do for the whole night.
GOONG DVD!
Alternate Views of what's inside.
the last picture, pretty much the same thing. but this angle like shit.
i miss those days where we used to meet
though i've yet to know you much inside out,
i think i've fallen for you
your eyes gleam like jewels
with a smile sweeter than candy
but in this cold, harsh and competitive world..
there's always someone who will overtake me in this virtual RACE.
Purple Rose;
7:36 AM
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
hullo. weird eh. im updating on the very next day, just directly a day after i updated YTD. well, this is going to be a relatively short and sweet post, because im just gonna update on what happened TODAY, a few pictures and that's it.
TUESDAY.
today was a boring day with a twist. and i ended up being a spendthrift bitch. argh ok. soOo, i slept around 5am the night before, and NO, not peach tea overdose. i chose to stay up to search for funny videos on YouTube. having an extremely late supper at 430am of cheese prata. extremely oily, and fattening to be snacking at that hour, yes i know.
awakened by SMSes at about 130pm later. and i woke up immediately since i didnt have the mood to sleep back. but then, i laid flat on the bed again, because i just didnt have anything to do. after some time, i lazily moved over to my desk and grabbed my laptop over to my bed. and continued watching Battle Royale 2 from where i last stopped as the movie was DEAD long. 2 hours and 30 minutes. argh. the movie was seriously being too long winded, and i didnt really like it. everytime a pretty girl dies, i get sian-er.
and so. after the movie, my mind was busy figuring out just what the hell am i going to do in the late afternoon. the clock is ticking, precious seconds losing off a boring TUESDAY. then i made up my mind. go for a hair cut!!!! but first, i need to ask some money from my dad who was also home. and as usual, he was a shelfish pokemon again. bla bla, after a hard time, i finally got at least some money from him, better than nothing, i took those 2 notes on the table and left home, in unwaxed hair.
5pm.
Location, Kimage @ funan. and i didnt see my usual stylist around so i was assigned to this new stylist, some old lady and she spoke really weird english. but heck, she got her job done, just as what i instructed her to do. and i realised that there was nothing much on my head that could be snipped off. but i got the vital parts rectified, and im pretty happy with it, but i guess it looks a littttle uneven on one side. and all these little trimming, thinning, and layering cost me $31.50
and that sum did quite a heavy amount of damage on my wallet.
and by the time im done with my hair, it was 6pm. and fuck, the only thing i ate for the whole day was 3 whole apples in the early afternoon. i think im turning to have Shinigami eating habits. my stomach was growling. and my stomach got saved at the sight of temporary food stalls LEVEL one. and i bought from this Seoul Street Snacks stall. their food pricings are very nice. $4 for 3 sticks of beef crap. when regular coffeeshops selling their satay as low as 20cents a stick. sigh, im eating korean food what, but it tasted greater than great. like im eating food that dropped from the Heavens.
walau eh. i regretted buying only $4.50 worth of food there. i should have spent at least $10 there so i can continue snacking non stop for the night. so i went home from there. and i was late for goong, kinda miss 10 minutes of the show already. fuck. after goong finished, i was greeted at the door by my Aunt, who just came back from Adelaide to meet my sister, and YESHH!!! she brought back my highly anticipated ALBUM!! argh. i was ecstatic laa. i waited for this album for about a month. and one frigging month is a LONGGGGG time. and it cost around AUD$25. should be in around it's early 30s when converted to SGD. but my sister bought it to me as a gift so i didnt have to pay a single cent. ok. i love my sister already.
2 things made my day today.
firstly, haircut, secondly, my album. but im disappointed that she didnt bring back any sweets/candies back so that i could share with friends here. the only edible thing that was brought back was some Cherry chocolate bar which tasted like CRAP. and worse, she bought a giant bag of it. total waste of $$. alright. some pictures below before ending this entry.
sinful night treat.
The Nachos i was talking about yesterday. mmmm. tempting isnt it?
Nachos + PC = a fat guy's life
Lastly, SAOSIN ALBUM w/ DVD
and so, tuesday = <33
I dont know when it all started
When my head became dizzy with thoughts of you
I wanted to show you how I feel
but i guess..
it'll just go back to those days where the sleepless nights first begun
Purple Rose;
7:51 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006
hullo. havent been updating in the past 5 days or so. why? because my life is boring. and for the past 2 days, i havent stepped a foot out of my house. just staying indoors, wasting every second of my life, doing nothing. and ruining myself with peach tea almost every night. An average of 9 glasses of peach tea a day. and i could see my future already. from what i've done in the past, i took full responsibility of my actions, im facing the consequences of it. i expect a really rocky two months ahead. oh. im such a fool.
SUNDAY.
peach tea overdose the night before. uncontrollable pissing until about 5am. slept at 530am. and the next morning, i had to go to music class, but i didnt go in the end. plain tired and i was beyond time. and today was probably one of the most boring-est days in my life. i stayed home the whole day. parents left together with grandma to go somewhere, i was asked to follow, but i declined. from 5pm onwards, i was a lonely boy. and they wont return till about 11pm. stoning online was killing me, so i watched Battle Royale on my laptop. but before doing that, i went down to cheers below to grab a movie snack. i have a reason to like Cheers now because they had a new snack in store which is a fat guy's dream come true. Nachos with cheese, those you can find at any movie snack bar. the exact same thing. all i have to do is just grab one of those plastic trays, a bag of plain Nachos, go up to the vending machine to retrieve fresh, warm cheese, and in generous servings too. what's best, all these for JUST $2.05! i felt like a fool paying up to $4++ at movie snack bars for the same damn thing. RIPOFFs. but also, i have a reason to hate the new CHeers outlet. they have downgraded from a 24 hour convenience store to a measely 7am-11pm opening hour. damn it. and most of the time i crave for snacks from 1am onwards.
after buying what's necessary, went up to start watching Battle Royale. for those who dont know, i could give a brief synopsis of this japanese movie. it is quite an old movie, released in 2000. i watched it before, when i was 13 i think. The movie is about this new Law released by the government, which carefully selects candidates for the BR program. so who are the candidates? most high school dropouts, and teenagers who are rude to their elders. firstly, those selected are drugged and brought to a secluded island, still unconscious, and worse, unaware that they are EVEN inside the program. and the main objective for all of them is to kill each other till there's only one remaining survivor on the island, in a span of 3 days. and none of them could escape this "game" because all of them have belts secured around their necks, and they are carefully monitored on the radar, and any attempt to remove the belt would trigger it to explode, and causing a really messy death. and if no winner is declared after 3 days, all the belts would activate, and everyone dies. in my opinion, this law is sick and sadistic. but it's just a movie anyway.
after the movie, it was barely 10pm, and i kinda forgot what i did already. so that's a boring sunday rounded up.
MONDAY. (today)
it was no better than yesterday. once again, i didnt go out, because i would be wasting my time lurking around the streets of town with nothing in mind. actually, i had plans to cut my hair, after giving some thoughts, i decided to drop the idea. i'll let it grow longer first. and i want a long fringe this time, goodbye to short fringe days. yesterday, at about 10pm, i drank my last glass of peach tea because the bottle of tea concentrate finished. but i got that problem solved today, a new one purchased of course. ate at mac downstairs as a late lunch. went upstairs back to watch Battle Royale 2. stoned a little while before Goong started. but things changed a little for the night. went to CP for dinner till about 10pm. and that's monday.
And now. im just sitting around, planning out what should i do for tmr(tuesday). if i stay home AGAIN, that will be a new record. but i have no intention of breaking records. i NEED to leave the house. and this thursday, would mark my last day in school for the holidays. i just have to attend a practical test for only TEN minutes in school, and thats it. actually, seriously, if i still attended it, my fate would still remain the same. but i'll just show myself anyway. i've downgraded to a "loner" status in school already. and that sucks.
and, for the holidays, i have a part time job in mind, which is the same job i did back exactly one year ago. a game promoter at mostly toys r us branches. but i only have a 50/50 chance of getting back the job, because the boss kinda dislikes me, because i made him lose one day worth of sales last year as i didnt restock on games. but that was my VIRGIN try as a promoter what?! i guess the working world out there is harsh. i'm reluctant that he'll hire me back. but i hope he does. i already have written out a list of things that i wanna get for december. eg: either a new hair color, technical hair perm or BOTH, a nintendo DS lite, new jeannnnnssss. more shoes. and duh, new shirts.
urgh.
may tomorrow not suck for me.
When I see you I begin to shake with nervousness,
no matter how I try to turn away and tell myself that it isnt true
I'm standing here like this behind you,
laughing even though it hurts, smiling even though I'm sad
the Pain of accepting certain facts in life
Purple Rose;
8:17 AM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
hullo. today, was definitely not a good day. Earlier this morning, i received SMSes from random people, but i was too lazy to crawl up to get my phone, so i went to piss, and resumed sleeping.
a few hours later..
this is where things get ugly. it's obvious that somebody wanted to start a verbal argument on my harmless tagboard. and at first, the day before, the same asshole tagged, and i suspected it was someone else, but i was wrong la. and i'm sorry for jumping to conclusions. with the help of carrot, recognizing the IP address, i finally got to know who the culprit was. and that made me lose my cool almost immediately.
so.. im not gonna elaborate further on what happened later, since it's over, im not gonna bring it up again. i hope the culprit does reflect on whatever damage he has caused, not to just me, others to.
back to blogging about the today. since i havent been attending choir for a week already, i decided to skip today's choir class, and i assumed it was the final class, and i dont seem to be learning anything useful from the class, i didnt go for it. bad move. 6pm, i got a call from some school friends. and i missed out one whole choir exam, that meant a straight fail for me duh, since i absent myself without any valid reason. arghhhh.
why do i have to be THAT slack, especially on the final week of school. i realised i have been faithfully attending classes from the start, and since last 2 weeks ago onwards, i started this really horrible routine, of skipping classes, not only one class, but for THE WHOLE DAY. if my mom finds out, i'm fried. i cant buy back lost time. what's gone is gone.
and tomorrow marks the second last day of school. i guess people must have been talking about my absence in school. but that's so not a good thing. i'm definitely going school tomorrow duh. but i guess i have to hide from certain people, because.. of what i did, makes me embarassed to face them. and 2 major assignments are due to be handed in TMR. and i'm stuck struggling with one of the assignments now, and it's 320am, unearthly hour. i have at least 1200 more words to complete my first piece, and another 500 more to go for the second. and the irritating fact is, both assignments were given to us more than a month ago, and we take abundance of time for granted. and now i'm rushing through, half asleep, dying for a cold refreshing bath. i'm 130% sure that im not the only person who is rushing to complete his/her assignments by dawn.
so... sleepy....
1200 words more to go...
wat. the. fuck.
that'll take eternity...
my mind is blank..
i just cant think of anything more to write...
this is fucked up.
i've downed about 8 glasses of Peach Tea. and im still reaching out for more. this craving is hard to kill.. especially when i have a whole bottle of peach tea CONCENTRATE, which is MIY(mix it urself) and tadah, one fresh glass of peach tea, and i guess it tastes better when it's LIPTON, and you're mixing it with concentrated levels suited to your desired taste. and i have a VERY annoying habit of drinking EXTREMELY concentrated peach tea, which meant that it is SWEET beyond human tastebud levels. but i still down it just like drinking a normal glass of water, not realising the severe side effects, ie; DIABETES.
ok fuck that. i've taken a few bo liao pictures because im really bored, and mind isnt in a very focused state anyway.
more.... peach...tea....
Trying to regain back some lost energy..
fuck. i cant sleep, especially with a head full of wax.
OK. i cant take it anymore. my eyes feel like it's stapled shut. im gonna sleep and wake up as early as possible the next morning and continue from where i left off. i have till 6pm the next day. good night.
i realised how many moments there were when my heart trembled
and i was late in realizing my feelings
these thoughts often pop up in my mind
i feel anxious as my heart expands more towards you.
Purple Rose;
11:05 AM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
hullo. today was not a very good day. argh. i just have to slap some self discipline into myself la. if i continue my old ways, i'll definitely go back to the dark side again, like what happened 3 years ago. no fucking way im reliving those bad memories again.
gay WEDNESDAY.
there was supposed to be an AURAL retest at 945am. and how stupid of me. i slept around 5 am the night before... and naturally i find it extremely difficult to wake up at 7am. well, actually i did get it up at 7am, because of a natural instinct; my bladder was full, so i scampered to the toilet as fast as ever to relieve myself, then i dropped dead on the bed again. and so, by the time i regain consciousness, it was totally impossible to reach school on time. and if i still had the crazy urge to rush, i stopped a while to think that it wont do any good, as i would end up being awfully late, and making a fool out of myself in front of others, and i wouldnt wanna lose face. since i know my aural teacher is that sarcastic..
but, seriously. this is becoming more fucked up. i must force myself, in some way to sleep early. the more i oversleep, the more i miss classes, the more i miss classes, the more i dont gain knowledge, and when that happens, i dont know what is going on, and when i dunno what's going on, i will start to panic, and when i panic, i will do do badly in exams. and this is like some sort of chain reaction la, eventually leading to something that i dont wanna end up being. back to where i was.
since dad was at home, i HAD to do something to show that i'm "going" school. but somehow, it was not really "me". i wouldnt leave the house without wax, and wearing SLIPPERS? but heck, that's what i did, all an act to cover up. actually all that "covering up" wasnt even necessary in the first place as my dad was home but SLEEPING. i decided to go out as i wouldnt wanna waste my day, sleeping at home like a block of wood. and i hate staying home anyway.
but the question is.. WHERE TO GO?
i didnt take much time to decide. and since im dressed so CASUALLY, slippers la, so ah pek. i just went downstairs to Hougang POint's Macdonalds outlet for a late breakfast. it was only 1135am then. and by the time i settled down to have my meal, it was quite a peaceful setting, not much people were around. and i like it. and sOoOn, more hougang sec kids start pouring in and the place was getting noisier. but i got that issue fixed, just plug into my world of music. my IPOD.
took out my japanese work to revise for JLPT 4. did the 2003 paper. it was quite a breeze for me. but i cant get too complacent... later got 842948 careless mistakes. and sooOo, after 2 hours of being a "diligent" student, i finally got sick of sitting for too long, and left the place to go home. dad was already awake by then. but he didnt suspect a thing. so, yea, im good. hahah.
so basically. the whole of today, i just spent 2 hours outside, and im back home again. and thats kinda boring la. i'm wondering how my other friends faring in school. oh ya, some of them have no school today. priority of being a classical student. and time passed rather sLoWlY... and the sky started having mood swings... turning really BLACK. and it poured. so im thankful i wasnt out there, shivering and being drenched in the rain like a few days ago.
i laid on my bed. just letting thoughts go though my mind. both good and bad. hugged a pillow. and my eyes were starting to close. and there, im napping. in such good weather anyway. woke up later just in time for GOONG. i kinda shed a tear for the second prince in this episode. because the way he felt in the show was similar to the way im feeling too.
"it's no use trying to get something out of your reach."
the way the princess reprimanded him was a very "in-your-face" type of rejection. and tears fell. oh my. that's so sad la. i feel for him.
okok. then my mom got home to watch GOONG with me till it ended, and we went down to hougang point below together to the optical shop. i forgot to mention this earlier, my spectacles gave way and one side came out, so my glasses are as good as "broken". and my mom kept nagging at me. but it isnt my fault! what can i do when it just had to drop off just like dat? so... after choosing through the new designs, i finally picked the one which suited my face. and it's another black rimmed one la, quite similar to the old one. and my degree increased for my right eye by 25 degrees. im turning blind..
and here is a picture of my Death Notebook. dont piss me off or i'll write your name in it. hahah. as if it'll ever happen. i WISHED.
and im having second thoughts about tomorrow. oh. i just dont know la.
i was a fool.
my regrets were too late.
I know that it cant be turned back
i cried my eyes out, but my heart wont stop loving you.
Purple Rose;
8:07 AM
