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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

i woke up at 1pm today. slept the night before at about 5. nothing new. only 3 hours earlier this time. i just didnt complete my music homework la. feel so disappointed with myself. i rolled around the bed for some time, just thinking of certain stuff. then got out of bed. switched on my pc. everyone was kinda offline. then i just went to shower. showered extra long this time as the water was feeling sexier then stepped out of the bathroom and realised it was already 215pm wtf?!

got ready and tried to style my hair in 5 minutes. the wax is really beginning to suck. styling power 5 stars? ya right. more like 1 star. left home at 1425. the bus was freaking late la. i waited impatiently. finally 72 arrived and reached mrt station at 1440. omg how am i gonna reach class in time. and as usual again, was late for class. 15 minutes. and teacher was kinda annoyed. she went like, "what time does class start? what time is it now?"

finished class and went straight to rp to meet carot. i reached there directly on time again. see how punctual i am. but she wasnt there yet. i had to find ways to pass time so i just walked aimlessly around there for about 1/2 an hour before they arrive. ate fastfood again. all my fault. so unhealthy.

waited for the whore to arrive as he promised, 6pm. 6pm passed already like half an hour back. still no sign of him. waited a little while more, then he finally appeared. asshole. nvm, swensens treat added on already after cartel next week. there was some commontion going on outside as there were policemen confronting some beng and a KFC staff. another childish brawl la. cant these people grow up? fight fight fight. im totally against these lame and childish ways of settling a problem. the mature way is just to talk it out, like a man. anyway majority of the causes of these brawls are often over stupid reasons la. like for eg, "he stared at me" or "he push me never say sorry"

well, the world is bound to have losers like this la. since the world isnt perfect. dusk broke out. and the day was soon to called for. by then, we all went our separate ways already -_- pretty boring. if only we had something better to do. like, before i took my bus when i went back, i saw the carnival beside CP. there were people around there and some even sitting on the rides. so i assume that it has officially opened. after so damn long.

got back home and got really pissed. my computer died on me. really, this time. i tried to switch it on... nothing happened. i removed the plug and let it rest for a few minutes and tried again later, still nothing. i guess the internal circuits really overheated this time. and now, as im typing this entry, im using my sister's dreaded computer. i shouldnt be complaining. i think i should be feeling thankful that i actually have a spare backup computer with internet to use, no matter how sucky the specs are.

champions league finals early this thursday morning at 235am. i cant afford to miss that. one of the biggest matches in history. but somehow, im kinda feeling lethargic now.. sleepy... my head is groggy. i have to stop myself from getting sleepy.. some way. im feeling hungry again. fridge is reloaded with cheese crackers. been eating them non stop the previous few nights. they are just too addictive. oh, and tmr's the release of Da Vinci Code. eager to watch... but with who? guess im gonna watch it solo again.

got really nothing to much interesting stuff to blog about. wanted to take a pic of a sleeping old man in the MRT today, but how am i gonna do that without getting seen by the other commuters ? he sleeps with his mouth wide open. i giggled a little. anyway, if i really do take a pic of him, i wont be able to upload it since the program's in my own computer.

now i have a big problem. i have nothing to do from now till 235am. my fingers still hurt, playing guitar would be suicidal, no xbox 360 for me as the fucker is using the tv now. im left with only.... a pencil box and a stack of papers. homework. i guess i have to really discipline myself. Laziness is a contagious. no choice. i have to force myself to do it.. somehow. June's coming and the more i'll feel like a loser. 5 days a week, i would have practically nothing to do at all. just lazing around at home. it's killing me slowly. sighs.

with all these thoughts racing through my mind, i feel insecure sometimes. i guess my insomnia is gonna get far worse now. all because of these thoughts. please.. i couldnt bare to erase some of them away.

if only.
Purple Rose;
6:29 AM