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Monday, May 29, 2006

the time is now 3am. i'm yawning. im tired. but i'll just blog as per normal. my position in my chair now is sloppy as im typign this entry. my eyeballs are falling out of their sockets. almost la. there is nothing much to blog today actually. because i woke up so late as usual. 430pm, yet again -_- it is really 430pm on the dot. wondering maybe it could be a curse or wat. then just slacked in front of the computer screen for the whole day, until i had to entertain someone later.

all the way till 7pm. phew. if mom knew about this. i'll be dead. i was damn lucky ok. plus a very pressuring grandma. a departure of 1 minute later would result in death. then i didnt bathe for the whole damn day. just changed into some home clothes with my wacko hair, a natural out of bed look, but it looks like shit la. only bathed at 8pm. the heater is getting more and more screwed per day. sometimes the water is icyyyyyyyy cold, and wtf? i thought i blasted the heat meter to maximum? it felt like running naked out in the open during winter. and this is the part which pisses me off more, halfway through out my ultra icy bath, the water suddenly becomes fucking hot, and now i get burnt -_-

then put on some fresh new clothes and left home later at around 930pm to go out. shant go into further detail about la, only shall highlight some parts when i was out late into the night. i was in the MRT, crowded like hell, and the time is 10pm -_- then finally later i got to sit down. then there was this stupid indian man who kept staring at me non stop for about 20 minutes straight. fucking creepy idiot. later when he alighted, he kept turning round and looking at me too. if i had a knife i will stab his eyes. so i suspect he's a gay. gays fucking scare me. especially those bold ones who try to hit on you. they all need to be stabbed to death.

i was realllllly relieved after that idiotic indian man left the train. hope he dies in a freak accident later. fast forward. im back at the mall below my place at 1am to buy a drink as my body is dehydrated once again. and this TIME, i bought soya bean, no teas. then walked my usual route back home, passed the kopitiam. and i saw something realllllly interesting. there was some commotion happening outside the kopitiam. one big group of people. and the main stars were these two guys. they were at each others' throats. hahhah. the usual stuff la. bengs fighting. i bet it was over some stupid reason. like a stare, an accidental push, or u flirt with my stead, cheebye i buay song! hahah, i have to admit it's fun imitating them as it's hilarious. then when these two guys were quarelling, their faces were so close together, spitting saliva into each others' faces and from far view, they looked like as if they were smooching. ahhh. i could have grabbed a bag of popcorn and sit to enjoy the free show, but i didnt feel like it la. so i just went back home.

and now here i am. i had this certain feeling now. just now i felt dead tired as stated in my opening paragraph of this entry. and now, miraculously feel so energetic, no longer tired -_-
wtf is this.... bad enough for me to already have a fucked up body clock, but with this? no words could describe it la. tomorrow, i have plans to go to town for some solo shopping. i hope i dont wake up at 430pm again.

just to follow up from carrot's latest blog entry. some stuff. yes, i feel that love may be risky, but it revolves around the two people in the relationship. first off, a strong bond is required among these two, and maturity is also another major factor which plays an important role in the key to a successful and long lasting relationship. so, im just saying that when ur in a relationship, it doesnt mean you'll neglect your friends who are always there for you. if you probably do, it shows that you are probably selfish up there. so, to be in a relationship first, you have to ask yourself, are you ready for this? will you neglect your friends, will you let him or her down? will you screw this up like in the past? urgh. i guess i'll end here.

still stricken with insomnia.

the ache in my heart is always there. every night.

it will continue hurting always, until one day i decide to finally open up.

sometimes i wonder if love is good or bad thing.

i think of you every night.

IF ONLY.
Purple Rose;
12:03 PM