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Saturday, May 27, 2006

urgh. actually i didnt feel like blogging totally today. but somehow, i tried to sleep, then i heard a soft faint voice, "why are you ignoring me, i need to be updated..." so i just got up for once and told myself, just give it 15 minutes to blog whatever is on my mind and then go back to bed. and now here i am, blogging. shall talk about today before i move on to other stuff. yesterday was my dad's birthday. my mom actually told me, "please, forgive him, he's ur father, you cant go on ignoring him forever." my heart may be as cold as alaska sometimes, but otherwise, usually my heart is full of warmth, but im still confused la. should i or should i not. mom told me to get him a small gift at least because i never bought anything for his birthday in my life before. so im contemplating now, whether i should go out to buy him anything on a sunday afternoon later. i still dont know.

anyway yesterday i woke up early because of a full bladder, at 1115am. before i left, i used a new hair product, some spray which claims that it could hold a certain desired hairstyle for hours with a firm grip after wax use. it worked pretty well. my hair didnt harden up like concrete. nevertheless, im still unsatisfied with my hairstyle, i just feel uncomfortable with it la. it's just too straight and annoying. the Great Singapore Sale starts today. i reached class early and this time, my class had changed location, and there were 2 new students. this really old dude, he really is, and this lady. i sat allllllllllllll the way at the back, being my usual anti social self. then Watanabe Sensei told me to partner up with Angeline-san, the new 14 year old student who just joined our class a week ago. she seems warm and friendly, starting up conversations. class was better today, i didnt realise i had been learning japanese for 5 months already. time flies sooooo quick. after class i left and went for lunch at the foodcourt at wisma on the high floor. i bought 2 cheese pratas and sadly i only managed to eat one and half prata. the amount of cheese was suffocating me la, i think it was too much cheese stuffed into a prata. then i was really thirsty halfway throughout the meal and im eating alone, so i couldnt buy a drink without leaving my table. fortunately there was this lady pushing a cart of drinks moving around, and she happened to stop beside my table. she spoke to me in chinese and called me "xiao di di" -_-
i gave her that "do i look THAT young?!" look, but still i got my drink. $1.40 for one bloody can drink. cant blame, im in TOWN. all stuff in town is expensive. high rent wat.

town was crawling with people. duh. it's a freaking SATURDAY wat. i had to squeeze myself through crowds, thank god for my small built, i made through crowds with ease. with nothing in mind and ipod battery running low, i decided that i should just go home. reached CP at 6. looked at the funfair. guess i'm gona flag it goodbye soon. i'll miss your rides. even though u are ripping us off. nothing matches for the fun we had. and thus, that ends my day.

now i've kinda pissed with two people i know. first off, this guy is one year my junior, he is undeniably a dumb person. i'm only irritated by his character. one thing, i know one of his aims in life is to get to know as many girls as he could, stupid aim, really. and he always aims to impress girls all the time. so im sick of this. he once claimed that all girls are "childish" what a loser statement, for a person who is never successful in achieving his goal to get a girl in his life.

another guy im pissed with is my ex schoolmate. now he's left school, in "college" and recently i invited him to have a jamming session together like in the old school days. he never said anything, i named a few titles for jamming, he slammed the songs immediately, saying it is not "hardcore" enough for him. i wasnt so pissed yet until i asked him, "then what songs do you play?" and after that what he said, i think he's really a fucking asshole. he never wanted to reveal his list of songs and told me the only to find out is to go for his gig, then he boasted that his gig was always fullhouse whenever he was playing. from the rude tone of his, his level of arrogance is sky high. i dont fucking care how good your band plays, i will still hate you, to me, a good band not only plays good music, but also maintain a level of being humble at least.

my attempts to search and apply for a part time job are still in vain. all the fucking ads are mostly bogus, and some dont even pick up the fucking phone at all. whats the use of putting in the ads then?! nvm, there is still tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow's tomorrow and so on. i will never stop browsing through ads. i still have 2 friggin months of holidays. may lady luck be on my side. lastly, credit for salina, we're back on even terms. i was an asshole la last time. now. it's different.

i'll pull myself together for this.

sometimes tears well up in eyes when i think of this. i try my hardest to hold them back.

because boys dont cry.

the thousand "what if's" came back to my mind. it's all about you.

that one and only person.

just that, i have to say this.

i like you.

Purple Rose;
1:42 PM