So easy,

Friday, May 12, 2006

well. i just had to update la. it's freaking 523am now. and no, it's not that i dont wanna sleep, actually im already feeling very sleep since 2am but something is holding me back. it's not insomnia this time, it's my bladder, i just feel damn uncomfortable la. my father and i are still on bad terms with each other, shant talk about that anymore, only makes me more pissed.

2am. went up to the living room to switch on my 360. browsed through several channels to see whether anything nice is on. got one. channel AXN. show lasted only about 10 mins -_- then after that it showed Terminator 3. seemed decent so i skipped playing the xbox and watched tv instead. im in great pain down there la, not the first time i've experienced this, but for other times, the pain lasted at most about an hour, but for today's case, was special. it still hurts now as im typing this entry. hopefully, it'll be gone when i wake up later to go to town for my usual shit on saturdays.

basically today, the whole day was kinda slack, i did nothing. woke up really late and just played the guitar till about 6. then took a long refreshing bath and went downstairs the mini pasar malam to get myself some food. my first meal of the day. i've been leading this unhealthy lifestyle for months already. fuck it. everyday fastfood. i have to try to stay away for fast food for at least the next 3 days and find an alternative source of food. and healthier too. when i mean "healthier" i dont mean the food to be pure vegetables, just not deep fried, not too oily will do. Banquet at CP seems like a reasonable choice. maybe i'll eat there tomorrow. oh shit. i havent completed my japanese homework yet. i just got really lazy halfway through while doing. try my best to wake up early later and try complete the last few remaining blanks. mom was doing some spring cleaning in my room today. i didnt know my drawers were so full of junk. all the old secondary school books, and stacks of magazines. even spotted a few with boybands on the covers wtf. i cant imagine i actually bought those.

saw some stuff that brought sweet nostalgia back. some very very old birthday gifts from my best friend then. it was an innovative gift la, it was self made. it was a rock, painted with words. a unique gift. though old, i still keep it for memories. even though now we were drifted apart, we're no longer seeing each other since we're in different schools but i still remember all those times we all laughed and had so much fun in the early years in montfort secondary. i regret something now la. i should have religiously bought every school magazine in all my years in school. i like the feeling of going back into a virtual time portal when i have the free time to sit down and flip through those 0ld magazines. so sad. the only school magazine i bought was last year's, my graduating year.

somehow, i kinda miss my secondary school life now. im feeling totally different now. last year, on the last day of the O level exams, everyone was ecstatic, some even vowed never to return to this hell hole ever again after results day. we hated school like crazy and we were just too occupied on my minds on what we're gona do on this hyper long holiday. now the feelings are totally opposite. i wanna go back to experience all the fun we had in the old days. insulting teachers, especially the sissy science teacher who used sweets to bribe us to concentrate during his lessons, cracking stupid jokes in class, getting scolded as a group, being punished together. argh, i just miss those really fun days la.

on to where i was blogging about just now. oh ya, what i was doing today. night fell pretty quickly and caroline found this interesting bulletein on friendster. i know 97% of friendster's bulleteins are dogshit but this is one is exeptional, even though it's kinda dumb but it's fun. some slogan name generator. kept fiddling around with site and we made a list of funny slogans lol. pretty killed time fast and soon she went to sleep already -_- hell fast. i received about 7 MMSes from u, but i dont seem to be receiving any pictures yet, all text messages only -_-
Patience is virtue. so i'll just wait.

now we're exactly 2 weeks and 4 days away from June. seems to be damn long la. the more we think of june, the further it'll drift away, so it's best not to think of it and let it come naturally.
hmmmm, sakae sushi or pastamania or some other slightly higher class restaurants? still deciding lol. dont worry carrot, the 50 bucks is locked up in a safe and only i could reach it, i just had to hide it so my itching fingers wont take it and splurge on junk again. later it'll be my last chance to get mom a mothers' day gift. i better make use of all the time i got after classes. i MUST buy mom something nice. i told my mom about it. and she thought i had a sneaky plan up my sleeves. wtf? because she knew that i'm aiming to buy some stuff for so long already. i know i like those stuff but i think i'll let ur wallet rest, they're really expensive stuff. crap! it's 607am! shiiiiit. im crashing now. good "morning".

let's sit on those adrenaline pumped thrill rides together at the themepark. i grasped your hand tight. if this ride malfunctions, we'll die together. i love you to hell.

it's only a dream la. im still wishing...

Purple Rose;
2:24 PM