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Saturday, May 20, 2006

what a refreshing sleep i had. that was the best feeling one i ever had in a few years. after one full night of being awake, after an early evening shower, i immediately died on my bed. i think thats because i had been awake for a full 24 hours without any sleep, or even more, or maybe, it could be because of another reason.

well, now to blog on some stuff that happened the day before. the night that i stood awoke. was playing guitar till about 4 plus. realised i wasnt getting tired at all. then went to shower, after that my eyes were still wide open. completely no hint of sleepyness. looked at the clock, close to six. i lied on my bed. covered in blankets, switched off the lights. closed my eyes. nothing happened, they opened back later. i tried switching positions but to no avail. left, right, middle, all useless. it's just my mind la. then i gave up and got out of bed. i brushed the curtains aside and looked into the dawn sky. i stood there admiring the skies for sometime. it was actually kinda nice. dark blue.. with a little hint of golden sunshine at some parts. looked at the time, it was close to 7.

i switched on the computer. and basically did nothing... all the way.. till at least some humans came online and finally i've got some people to talk to. class is due to start at 1320. and im still late for classes -_- i arrived at 1330. actually, if the more i took my time to walk while switching trains from dhoby ghaut NEL to the North South line, i would be much later.

there was this new student in class. some 14 year old girl and her japanese was kinda good, seems like the younger students would grasp this subject well and faster. the other students excluding me were in about their late 20s, and one in his early 30s. lol. first hour of class, i was alert and my usual self. then came halfway into the 2nd hour of the lesson, i started feeling drowsy. my head was like a magnet to the table. i had to stop myself from lying my head on the table so i had to use my hands. and the new stuff she was thinking seemed to be not sinking into my head and i was really blur. came the third and final hour of class. im literally dead. sometimes while the teacher is writing on the board, i would take these few precious seconds to rest a little, putting my head down on the table. then teacher finally caught me and asked me to wake up. and she asked , "kai-san, kinou no ban nan ji ni nemashitaka?" which translates to, "what did did u sleep last night."

i said i didnt sleep entirely. and everyone was kinda shocked. haha. after class, this kind classmate of mine offered me chocolates, i guess they could help to stay awake a while more, while im rushing off to home. my stomach is growling as i didnt eat anything for the whole day, so to kill off that unpleasant feeling i had to buy some quick take away food, at level one of far east plaza. some quick snack of chicken bits dipped into cheese. it was nice la. after eating that, im back in the mrt, heading home already. i was so tired while walking, i wished i could just sleep on the floor. but nah, i dont want to be in the headlines of tmr's news.

the final MRT back. every fucking body was a kiasu singaporean. the door opened, and ALL i really EVERYONE rushed to sit. so typical singaporean behaviour. i really need a seat. i just had to stand all the way, not until kovan station, there was a corner seat for me. at last. slept a little till i reached sk mrt. the queue to the 159 bustop was as long as people queuing up for 4D. i slumped against the wall. later i looked at the funfair as the bus passed the area, so sad. the place is closing already. no more crazy surf rides : ( that was quick. i couldnt wait to get home.

slept early evening... all the way until 1330 TODAY. i calculated. more than 12 hours hahah. guess i'll be staying in today. resting. till i find a reason to go out and do something. find a job? i dont know. i need one badly. speaking of something to do. yes, finally, im eating out with muneh. hope that hoe doesnt procrastinate or do anything else stupid.

anyway now, to finally blog about something else. 2 days ago, i was reading the paper. stumbled upon this interesting article. of teens having sex with minors, becoming a hot topic. an example was given, a 17 year old boy having sex with his 14 year old girlfriend. and hes been recently charged for that. omg. even though the girl might be willing to do it, but in the eyes of the law, it is seen as statutory rape. i have somemore stuff to blog on about but i have to end off here first as im kinda in a rush to do something else.

im dying here in front of you. ur wounds arent as serious as mine but would you leave me here to die, or die here with me?

if only.
Purple Rose;
11:41 PM