So easy,

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

hullo. today's a yet another boring tuesday. i just woke up and it's 611pm already. i havent been sleeping peacefully. in the mid afternoon, some idiot kept calling the house, and it sux having a phone which is about 50cm from my bed. the ringing obviously woke me up but i just took the pillow and covered my ear. and there are about 3 people in the house, why arent any picking up the phone?! time for me to unplug the phone in my room so i could sleep better. and great, my mom "forgot" to give me my allowance again today. and yay, my sister is no where to be seen. but her room is a mess. so typical of her. the "karangguni" woman.

some stuff about yesterday(monday night). was happily using the computer though it wasnt mine because my sister wasnt home. then she came back. that monster. her first reaction upon seeing me? "get out of my room" Bitch. -_- how am i gonna survive any longer without my own computer. i hate sharing stuff with my siblings. thank god i dont have any younger brothers or not i would have murdered them and hid their bodies by now

a little unhappy stuff to blog about. i have this friend of mine, who made a decision to cancel his admission for Republic Polytechnic after he knew through JAE he got posted there and he didnt liked the course anyway. he wanted to do something in his interest. later then he knew that i was applying for the popular music course at La Salle. he knew late so he went for his audition late. and here's the first thing he did that pissed me off. when asked about what school he was in, he confidently replied, "Lasalle" when he havent even gotten through auditions yet. like wtf rite? that pissed some people off including me and the rest of POMV. nik was right. so right. lemme quote from him "he is DAMN STUPID" the first audition i went through myself wasnt successful, i lacked one major requirement which was music theory. and not long later, Lasalle sent me a letter saying that i've been given a second chance to go into the school provided i pass their theory test. and kudos to my mom, she spent an entire sunday afternoon looking through ads just for the sake of finding me a private music teacher. she found one school at city hall. i started going for classes, i absorbed the stuff reasonably quick. then one fine day, i returned from class and was hanging around at CP to eat and i happen to see HIM, and yah, i remembered, his audition day was today. from his expression, he looked super uneasy, so im so sure he didnt get through the audition. something else he said to me about a few weeks before the audition. he clearly didnt get me.

me: you going for the Lasalle audition? you know, i didnt get through, you NEED to know how to read notes.
HIM: ya, i know how to read.
me: you sure about that? i dont think it is anything related to drum tab reading. it's NOTES.
HIM : i know.

then he saw me. we went to eat lunch at Yoshinoya. he didnt get through the audition. i knew it. and the worst thing is, the retest is a week away. that was in mid April. he was really panicking already. because he got no other choices of schools to go to already and MINDEF is breathing down his neck about NS deferment stuff. then i recommended the private music teacher that i go to. he called up the school, made necessary appointments, and he's under the same teacher as me also. ON the day of the music test. after it actually, he said it was quite easy. i didnt think so. i struggled at some parts.results day. about 2 weeks later.... on this morning i was having early lunch with a jinx and he called me up and he was upset, he said the school called him up telling him that he failed his paper badly. i feared for the worst myself. but i received the verdict later. i GOT INTO LASALLE! that was like one of the highest peaks of my life. i felt really sad for him la. my mom actually wanted to call lasalle up, to plead the staff there to give him a second chance. she was also concerned for him. through a chain of events, he got his final chance. he still kept going for classes under the same teacher.

and he sat for his final retest early this month(JULY). and a week later. he got his results. he got in. when he told me i was happy for him. but at the same time, i'm disappointed in him. just who was the person who recommended you the classes? if not for that, you would have been on ur own, and what if u were unable to find a teacher urself? kiss ur dreams to stay in lasalle goodbye. and NOW, you fail to even show the simplest form of gratitude to me. actually you shouldnt say it to me. you should thank my mom herself. it was her effort. SO MUCH FOR BEING A GOOD FRIEND.

ah. feel so much better venting out the frustration inside. im still feeling so tired la. i dont feel like talking to anyone on MSN. i think soon, my sister is gonna come back and ask me to get out again. when she was away, i kinda missed her FOR the FIRST time in my life. and now when she came back, that feeling disintegrated into the air. why cant we get along... and im so hungry. still in PJs. argh. i'll just end here. what an ending. -_-

waiting for your.. call, im sick, im angry, and im desperate for you voice,
listening...to the song that we used to sing, in the car, do you remember?
butterfly, early summer.. it's playing on repeat
just like when we would meet.

Purple Rose;
3:09 AM