So easy,

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

hullo. life has been quite shitty these days. i'll elaborate further in my later part of this entry. just didnt have the mood to update for the past few days. now's a tuesday already. havent updated for at least 2 days. shall blog on the better stuff first, so i could keep my mood at least up for some time at least.

SUNDAY. presented my music teacher with a Cherry Ripe chocolate bar bought all the way from aussie. the packaging of this chocolate bar makes it look like as if it tastes damn nice la. my mother placed it in my file alongside with my music notes and reminded me like hell NOT TO "ACCIDENTALLY" EAT IT. it was quite a temptation for me la. but i'm kind-hearted... so i resisted temptation and gave it to my teacher.

Then after music class i went to my japanese language center to pass my form to them. surprisingly the counter staff didnt seem to be working that day and weirdly, my teacher herself was there, and she assisted me. then i realised, shit! i should have given her some stuff from aussie. hopefully next week i'll pass her some goodies, provided there are actually some left. the rainbow cookie is still fresh and untouched, its wrapper firmly sealed. the marshmallow is also unopened and left rotting in the fridge. i brought the marshmallows to school and NOBODY wanted to try it -_- so i felt like an idiot for bringing it. so after submitting my form, i left for home. boring day la.

MONDAY. i need not blog anythign about school. some stuff about that i'll explain in the later paragraphs. then met muneh around evening time so he could pass me my schoolbook that he went home with. As the night was still young, i decided to play pool but the bitch didnt have money(i assume he isnt lying but i think he is anyway) so we just went back home. muneh is a bad liar. you know, lying convincingly also needs skill and YOU DONT HAVE IT. i can give a few tips on how to tell lie convicingly. firstly, try to refrain from smiling. if better, try to remain expressionless. speak in your natural tone of your voice. DONT LAUGH.(duh) one slight chuckle that escapes from your mouth ruins everything. and lastly, prepare to cover up certain stuff you're lying about. leave some evidence and you're an idiot. like a good example is this, muneh says, "i got no money......." then later we suggested having dinner, muneh magically whips out a $10 bill from his wallet. no money huh?

mom bought me this newly addictive game for my xbox 360. and what the fuck? about 20 minutes into the gameplay, the game hung. and it happens that my console might be facing a severe problem. after a few tries, the game loaded back again smoothly but i'm still not convinced that the problem is over yet. just when i thought i could relieve myself of some stress from some problems in my life. it actually added on more to it.

the new game. on the extreme right bottom corner there is sign saying "NOT TO BE SOLD TO ANYONE UNDER THE AGE OF 18" hahah. due to its gorey and explicit nature.

ok. on to the gloomy part of today's entry. bear with it, it may some like some letter to Aunt Agony. and again, i have friendship issues in school. and it totally bothers me. so sad that i cant really socialize that well in school i have to resort to following a clique of girls around. one thing bad, they dont seem to be talkign to me. it's like im a mute person following them around. and today, they went out for the first half of the school day i presume they had lunch and i'm stuck being alone in school, they just didnt invite me. i called one of them on the phone, she didnt pick up and neither did she return my call. i felt a little disturbed. i asked the similar girl a harmless school-related question by sms she didnt reply me either. wondering if they have something against me. and finally the thing that bothers me most. this girl in the group is inviting people to somewhere to celebrate her birthday i presume(which was in 2 weeks' time), 2 weeks in advance, and she totally ignored me. and i was directly behind her,(she did this invitation thing during lecture) and the guy beside me got invited. so, to summarise this all up, i felt like a total outcast in this group. being in it from the start, not even getting a simple invitation like this. this feeling is so fucked up. i even got them chocolates from aussie and this is what kind of response i get. because of this i've been rather gloomy in the group. not saying a single word. and this greatly affects my life in school. sometimes i feel like not even coming to school. but obviously i wouldnt let the expensive fees that my parents are paying for go to waste so i'm still attending my classes as usual. but your friends play really important roles into making your school life enjoyable and now THIS has to happen. Am i thinking too much or should i really leave this group to ease my feelings?

And someday, i promise i'll be gone
and someday, i might even sing this song to you
and i was crying alone at night
and i was wasting all of my life just thinking of you

Purple Rose;
7:36 AM