Thursday, September 28, 2006
i look at them. should i join them? i want to, but something inside of me tells me to FUCK OFF because i feel so damn uninvited, being an extra, and so, i just turn and walk away. sound familiar? just bringing up some of the old stuff, because they kept coming back and affecting my life. this is a typical scenario for me in school. i just want things to change.. so badly.
hullo. guess i didnt blog in a while. the usual reasons la. im kinda starting to dislike school even more nowadays la. not because the lessons or teachers suck, is the way im mixing around in school. i guess if i didnt follow any certain group of people during break periods, i would have to be on my own for all the hours left in the break. i just.. dont like it la. the feeling of being invited is so much better than actually just following any random group, WORST, if neither of them actually know you're tagging along, or they detest you following them, just like a pest. well, who likes being alone?
MONDAY.
caught a last minute bus going to school, and it was quite a bad start for the week la. i came in around 10 minutes late and i guess the attendance marking was like over. and music theory now is kinda getting confusing to me. after class, i forgot to tell the teacher that i was PRESENT, so i guess that'll mark my 3rd absence from Theory Class. i'm not sure either, but i think so la.
after that we had the boring-est class in Lasalle. Techical Theatre. i guess everyone in that class was like wishing for time to go by quicker. had break later on and went to Mac across school for lunch. mac's free wifi service is slow as hell. i tried logging on using my psp's web browser and the time it takes to load a small page such as GOOGLE takes eternity. had the last class of the day later on, Rhythm Ensemble and it's fun. got to learn some new african drumming technique. 510pm, left for home.
TUESDAY.
i thought i was gonna be late as the bus was like turtle slow in the morning. but i wasnt : D i'm realllly lucky la i guess. first class of the day was not realy a class but a Lunchtime Concert. they were only 2 guys performing and both of them were teachers from our school. just a drummer and a saxophonist, and they were good. later, we had Performance Analysis lecture which was supposed to be on at 4pm. lecturer came, but the surprising thing was that the class was cancelled later. that makes the 2nd class in a row to be cancelled. reason? the room was locked, and the keys couldnt be found. i feel it's a stupid reason la. but lucky, there was gonna be a test and i havent even started studying.
then rushed off to CityMusic. got my POD XT LIVE. bought a carry case after 29859385 years of procrastination. i just cant wait to use this baby when i get home la. thanks MOM. sad, i probably wouldnt get my ps3 for my birthday next year : (
WEDNESDAY.
was rushing like hell in the morning. i got up late la. wednesday mornings are torturous. especially when the first class starts at 10am. so LUCKY, i ran like a madman up to class when it was like only 1003am. and teacher wasnt in class yet, phew. so relieved. and yes, aural class SUCKED for me, my hearing is horrible la. i admire people with PERFECT PITCH. aural classes to them would be like ABC to them.
ok. Wednesday's pretty much a short day la. since the last class ends at 1pm, i got home at 3pm, and took a nap. end of wednesday.
THURSDAY(TODAY)
lemme calculate the amount of hours i approximately slept since the night before. 9am - 12pm, which makes up FIFTEEN HOURS of sleep. and waking up at 12pm isnt right at all. when class is at 1pm. had speed showers and dress-ups. clock reflected 1215pm, obviously i missed like a thousand 72s. so i begged my grandma for $5 to take a cab to a nearby MRT station so i would feel better. and yes, i took a cab later, and i wasnt late for class.
academic writing was a bore. then here comes the ultra boring part. almost a 5 hour break before the next class, CHOIR. what the hell am i going to do?! ended up going to marina square with gabe, isaac, iris and dewi for lunch. i feel so much better being in a smaller group, since i'll turn mute if the group has way too many people. went to HONGKONG CAFE for lunch. the prices are quite a killer, not being REALLY expensive but because im on a tight budget. was reluctant to order.... but eventually i did so la, my stomach was growling anyway. had some pork spaghetti with cheese and it was pretty ok. didnt finish it though, just too much for my stomach. dewi was so kind, she paid for my meal. thanks. though she may seem a little eccentric, but i find her nice. went to play pool with gabe and isaac and got a thrashing from them. hahah. crap.
took a cab back to school for CHOIR. damn the class. so BORING! adrian kinda blew up at us guys. walau. when i thought class was gonna be over, he went "ok, lets do Annie's song." fuck la. another song?! my throat is like getting dryer and dryer la from all the singing. after enduring hell, finally finished class at 7plus. went home!
so quick and it's already a friday tmr. cant wait to see certain groups perform during fusion tmr. ben borrowed from me my old vestax pmc-06 mixer for his fusion performance tmr. really wanna see him do his thang tmr. and now, it's best for me to be sleeping. good night.
your eyes aren't yours to be clear now
cause you wouldnt take me home
your right and it wasn't a mistake
i never told you what you were missing
