Thursday, October 26, 2006
hullo. today sucked. why? read on to find out in the paragraphs below. another one of those bad days again. school is starting to put on more pressure in my life. not the workload, but the idea of getting promoted to the next level instead. just dont wanna repeat the same old bloody mistake which i did 3 years back. which is to retain one bloody year. and it will cut 1 year off my NS deferment, which is the more fucked up reason.
but however, i feel that whatever happened 3 years ago was kinda more like a hidden blessing in disguise for me. what if i passed sec 3 express, went on to graduate iin 2004, and knowing that im not those hardcore study-ers, i still get overall average grades which puts me on a boring course in Poly, something which i have no complete interest in. life would be far more suckier now if that were to happen. and i think i will never get to meet some people whom i know now if that happened. so i feel grateful and relieved now to be where i am.
WEDNESDAY.
mom took a day off work today for a reason i never knew. and it was irritating la, i dont really like to see my parents around at home. because i like to be ALONEEE. you get what i mean la. and today was no longer a holiday. there wasnt AURAL class today but there was still some other activities on for us, but i overslept so i didnt feel like going school but i showered and left the house still. original plan was to go the sengkang library to do some japanese/music work, but i dropped that idea soon after and went to Cineleisure instead. it was dead early la. 1130am, and most of the shops were still closed. lazy staff. i wanted to search for the Death Note book too. had an early lunch at BK cine. it was mostly populated with international school students la, mostly those blacks and ang mohs. and one group of japanese dudes. bought my french sandwich meal. then saw a really old ex-classmate but didnt bother to go up to him and strike a conversation as he was a shitface/loser back in sec school. and i still remembered in class last time, everybody hated him. it was fun, especially pissing him off. class team spirit to sabo him and eventually getting him caned. it was sweet nostalgia.
12pm.
couldnt finish my french chicken sandwich even though it tastes exceptionally good. 7 inches are too much for me. went up to some shop selling anime, and an assortment of stuff from japan, but they didnt have what i wanted. so.. i came all the way to orchard for fucking nothing. but 12pm is still early and going home now is not a wise choice. left cine and walked to takashimaya. stopped by Kinokuniya and a variety of shops. target item still not found. walked over to Far East Plaza's comics connection outlet. saw someone reallllly familiar working there. lenny!(not his real name though but that name suits his personality perfectly) and the good news is, CC does break in the original death notebooks, but bad news is, it's out of stock. but good news again, it should be in by this friday, which is like, a few days' time. perfect timing.
left orchard for CP. back to original plan. settled down at SengKang Community Library. and the lousy place didnt have free wifi service for my laptop. so i got pissed and packed my stuff and left. went to the CC outlet on the same floor, and bought the small Death Notebook. though not exactly what i wanted, i just had the spare cash, i purchased it. shall be using it in my japanese class this saturday. stoned at macdonalds on the basement till 4pm. bought coke and 2 apple pies. then while clearing a table that i was gonna shift to, one of the staff took away one of apple pies thinking that it was left behind by the previous customer. wtf? stoned till 4pm. and called it a day.
THURSDAY (today)
im NOT late this time. everything seemed to churn out right, for the start. i reached school 15 minutes before class starts. one weird thing. i dont see many music foundation students around. kinda giving me an impression that class was cancelled, just that nobody told me. but it was on as usual. and 1/2 of the music foundation students didnt turn up. thats not the shitty part of the day yet. i was like a complete shadow among my friends today. none even said a simple "hi" to me. what's worse. i dropped my laptop during lecture, while balancing it on my lap, to fish out a pen in my bag. big mistake. but it still had the case on, so it was okay. no problems with it for now. *big sigh of relieve*
so i left school in a jiffy. since everyone treated me as if im invisible. went to Funan Mall to have lunch at Yakun, loitered around shops for a while before stopping by at Mac's for free wifi service. left funan at 410pm. went off to slack at Jie's place. it was indeed refreshing. especially when there were no else around, except the two of us. and by dusk, im off for my dinner at S-11. BBQ chicken wing rice was heaven. Jie was trying to control me from overspending, since i'm feeling rich nowadays haha. then went to the CC outlet at West Mall in search for my Death Notebook. as expected, it's completely SOLD OUT. 930pm. bid goodbye, left for home. walking home, i saw bright lights under corridors from a distant. and my stomach was growling a little, so i thought that it was a PASAR malam, the food paradise for a food junkie like me. i got closer, and it was a FUNERAL instead -_-
NOW.
1237am.
looking at today's class attendance which was crap, i finally decided that im not going school tomorrow. but neither am i gonna stay home to rot. FRIDAY is the one and only day before the the ABSRM grade 5 music theory exam. which is scary as fuck as im thinking of it now. i guess i'll be out studying, either in mac, but question is, which mac, but it'll definitely be in the hougang/sengkang region.
before closing off. i wish all my sec sch friends, happy holidays ahead.
this was the only way we knew how
to make everything just okay
i'll make it up tonight
we'll make believe that everything's alright
cause you wouldn't take me home
